She tragically lost her baby Lorena on July 8, just minutes after she was born.
And an emotional Lauren Goodger has now tragically admitted it looks like the newborn is “still there” as her bump “doesn’t change” and is still showing.
In an interview with New magazine just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: “It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up.”
‘It breaks my heart I won’t see her grow up’: Lauren Goodger has tragically claimed her late baby Lorena seems to be ‘still there’ as her bump ‘doesn’t change’
Revealing that doctors spent eight minutes trying to revive her second child, Lauren explained how she had originally planned for a home birth.
It was when her midwife could no longer detect a heartbeat that the TV personality was rushed to hospital, with contractions starting two days after her waters broke.
Confessing she was screaming outside Queen’s Hospital in Romford, Essex, when her daughter’s head popped out, Lauren was later told her umbilical cord had become knotted in two places and had wrapped around the baby’s neck in the womb.
Lauren told the post that she “never thought I’d have to plan a funeral for my son” and that her “restless” body feels like she’s “missing a newborn.”
Tragic: In a new interview just weeks after her tragic loss, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: “It shouldn’t happen. It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up.”
She continued: “I’m healing. I’m still bleeding, I feel like I’ve been run over.
“I’m not getting anywhere by blaming myself. I have to try to move on and accept it. I have to understand it first. She was perfect.
Having been accompanied by her boyfriend Charles Drury, 25, the couple spent 24 hours with Lorena where they took photos – which she now carries with her – and had casts of her hands and feet made.
Lauren has also stated that she is not ready to consider trying for another baby and would not go for a natural birth again, instead choosing a C-section.
The influencer recently spoke to The Sun about her experience, revealing that she “stayed up all night with her newborn, kissed her, bathed her and sang to her.”
‘I stayed up all night with my baby and bathed her and kissed her’: Lauren recently opened up about the tragic loss of her newborn daughter Lorena while planning her funeral (stock image)
Lauren has been supported by Petals, a regional baby loss charity that partners with The Queen’s Hospital.
She said: “The hospital and the petals were amazing. Lorena stayed with me the whole time. I bathed her and put her in a white crop that belonged to Larose. It was beautiful.
“I picked her up and kissed her. I sang to her and we played songs. She looked like she was asleep.
Lauren, who is also mum to 12-month-old Larose with partner Charles, said family and friends came to the hospital to support her and it was a “very emotional evening”.
Sad news: Lauren paid tribute to her daughter Lorena, who died on July 8; is her second daughter with boyfriend Charles Drury
After being up all night, Lauren praised the charity who came the next day to get her hand and foot prints done.
Lorena was also given a tuft of hair and a special candle and a photographer took photos which friends placed in a locket.
Lauren had planned a natural water birth, which would take place at her home in Essex under the supervision of her midwife Tamzin, who had previously given birth to the TV personality’s first child, Larose.
Her waters broke on July 6 and initial vitals were normal, and Lauren was considered “low risk” after giving birth to her first child without any problems.
Devastating: In statement, Lauren said she ‘will never get over death’
More tests were carried out the following day, during which the fetus’s heartbeat was detected, but when her contractions began on day three, the heart was no longer beating and Lauren was rushed to hospital .
After a two-hour labor, more than ten doctors fought desperately to save Lorena by doing chest compressions and administering adrenaline, but to no avail.
She added that after Lorena’s death, Charlie’s family went to Lauren’s house and cleaned the birthing pool.
Lauren is planning Lorena’s funeral, which will be private, and said she would like to spend her time working with baby loss charities to help other parents.
She said: “I take each day as it comes. Without Larose I wouldn’t be here. She’s getting me through each day.
She has said she wants to know why her daughter died of her own sanity and has asked for an autopsy.
Lauren revealed the heartbreaking news that her baby had died earlier this month.
Taking to Instagram to share a photo of Lorena touching her hand, Lauren wrote that she “can’t understand” why her daughter has died after going through an uncomplicated pregnancy and delivery, adding that she and his partner Charles have been “braided”. ‘for the tragedy.
Lauren wrote: “Lorena [angel emoji] RIP 08.07.22 he was the most beautiful healthy baby I have ever seen just like his sister @babylarose.x…
“Words cannot describe how a mother loses your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and also gave birth because my angel was taken from me. [angel emoji].
“There were no pregnancy or delivery complications and she was fine and healthy, but I won’t go into details now, I just know there was nothing wrong with her or myself, she was perfect.
“I can’t get it, she’s so beautiful twin Larose, so similar… I’m torn [heartbreak emoji].’
Lauren admitted she will “never get over” the tragic loss of her daughter and asked for time and space to grieve as she turned her attention to her eldest son.
She continued: “I’m back home from the hospital. Me and Charlie spent so much time with our little girl Lorena and I still haven’t said goodbye [heartbreak emojis].
“Please can I ask the photographers to respect our privacy right now as we have a lot of grieving to do and the funeral arrangements I just need this one time and with my little girl Larose is my rock making it through or not making it through…
Parents: Lauren and Charles are parents to Lauren’s first daughter, Larose, and Charles says his newborn looked just like his big sister (pictured with his first born)
“I will never get over this but I will learn to live everyday with Lorena in my heart, she will always be with me and one day I will be with her again…
‘My [angel emoji] Lorena I love you so much [heartbreak emoji](sic).’
Her partner Charles Drury paid tribute to her newborn daughter soon after.
Charles, who raises 11-month-old daughter Larose with Lauren, took to his Instagram later today and wrote: “Your little heart will forever beat inside mine.”
Charles wrote: ‘Lorena Drury – 8/7/22.
“Our beautiful baby girl so perfect in every way, 8/7/22 will always be your day. Your little heart will forever beat inside mine, I will love you until the end of time.
“You remind me so much of your big sister, you would have looked like little twins, Larose will always know how beautiful and strong you were.
“I promise I’ll take care of your mom and sister forever, just look at us all and keep me strong, show me signs that you’re in heaven where you belong. I’m sorry it had to be this way, but I know some one day we will be together again.”
“This is not something I thought I would ever write but I am so proud to be your father see you soon babe but for now sleep well.”
If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact the UK Children’s Bereavement Line on 0800 02 888 40 or The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.
Exciting: Lauren revealed she got prints of her daughter’s hands and feet and was given this beautiful candle